後記

致學弟妺：

被稱為學弟妺是幸福的。不久的將來，你們又會發現世界變得很不同，不知未來會如何呢？

《Shadow》這篇寫得不倫不類，這個木地板使我家感受很深。由一家四口轉變成一家三口。家的浴室水缸漏水，這地板變成了《習慣說》的現代版。日益嚴重，樓下鄰居投訴，日後變成了wditshare中的《裝潢秘技輯錄》的鬼魂。

以《回聲太吵》回應今天的局面。自己也被觸動。很重要，盼藏心。

《不惜任何代價》很血氣，又很愚蠢。又以這篇給今天局面多一點反思。

《大學》這篇很歷史性。內心也難過。希望學弟妺不要懶惰。

"INFATUATION VS LOVE"這篇最尷尬。很不喜歡那些圖片。但我估它最有娛樂性。T.T 很想刪掉。不過你們的記憶我刪不掉。

現在的人用#hashtag，打字不用倉頡，相片不再由dc過入電腦，被冠上「上一代」名銜的感受很差。

最後來一首詩歌，像夢想的最初一樣，歷久常新：

我不知明天的道路，每一天只為主活。

我不借明天的太陽，因明天或許陰暗。

我不要為將來憂慮，因我信主的應許，

我今天要與主同行，因祂知前面如何。

有許多未來的事情，我現在不能識透，

但我知誰管著明天，我也知誰牽我手。

Meeting Mr. ChangJie

回憶小時候，怎麼邂逅了倉頡。

那時候的我，為了今天的自己，努力著打日誌。

每次打日誌我也會禱告。願主使用我的日誌，願主保守我。

那時候的日誌沒有auto-save功能，按錯了，伺服器、網絡壞了，東西就都沒了。

中七的暑假，我面對著電腦，思想著茫茫的前路。

常常深夜都不睡。為了找靈感。

記得那個假期，我迫自己從速成轉去用倉頡。打一篇字的時間花多了兩倍有多。字怎樣也打不出來。那份自找的痛苦主知道。

每一顆簡單的字，從來都有捷徑的方法。

現在的我，「」，、。這些符號都能直接打出來了。給我英文鍵盤我也可以打中文字。

當然，也還會有很多打「*」的字。「凹凸」背不到，會打「粒突」。

都是那時一點一滴的累積。

從前羨慕的倉頡人，不知不覺，（強調其實也不是沒知覺）換成是今天的自己。

不知不覺。就是因為那些沒有auto-save，一篇長文要打兩三次的歲月。（後來的我聰明了點，在windows -> notepad 中打好再cp上去。習慣定時ctrl + s。好很多。）

再小一點時候，覺得打英文要打space就是一件好奇怪的事情。寫出來就是留一個空間，沒有action。字是一顆一顆地找。

怎麼，不知不覺，認識了倉頡，打了這篇，花了一小時。像當天一樣，又跟當天不再一樣。



期後再想回來，一個宣教士說過，神裝備一個人，也許不是在信主以後，可能早在我們沒出生，祂已經在預備我們了。我們生在哪𥚃，為什麼我是長這個樣子，為什麼我會長在這麼一個家庭，有這麼的喜好和性情。

每一天努力預備，你總不知道將來你會變成怎麼的一個人。從前的每一個打不出來的字。人田卜 一 人田十口 手一弓 一火 山山 木人人 竹日心戈 十弓木 。戈竹尸 卜火戈大山 弓弓 人戈弓 一大 竹日心戈 竹月山 尸山。成就了今天的自己。

：）

Fine Tuning the Abstract

In painting IMO the most time consuming, at the same time most fun part is the fine tuning of work after grasped the concept to express, to transform it to a deliverable product. This imitates me some thoughts in these few years ...

Like piano, long-term practices on the pure and flawless chords behind the pianist equip him to deliver his most delicate performance.

The continual attempts on searching for exact harmonic combination of smell and taste differ the dishes from food to cuisine.

Continual practices on muscular flexibility and strength of ballerinas accommodate them to achieve the exquisitely elegant postures.

Likewise, continual practices on experiencing and reflecting in every social interaction makes a person adaptive to every different kinds of individuals and circumstances.

What I wanna say is, fine-tuning by time mold an amateur to a professional.

Once they were only the incomplete and abstract concepts, through fine-polishing for the kernel belief, plus a little congenital merit and acquired cultivation, the imperfect are now distilled to present the enchanting masterpieces.

This somewhat applies to all fields, in programming, in writing, in anywhere people want to strive for the good work.

This reminds me to do my utmost always, though we must stumble at some points in the abstract, persist to go - like rowing upstream, if we are not ready to advance, we are probably heading to roll back. Keep going for the goal, by time we will know our effort will never be in vain. And this is my belief.

Infatuation vs Love in academical point of view

http://www.diffen.com/difference/Infatuation_vs_Love

The Painting Process

The initial inspire

What initiated me to start begins with a image of a vase of flowers. The image was originally pretty vague in my mind. I want to paint a plain one, in single color tone (with a little color variation), elegant but not too feminine, simple, clean, in classic form, with oil painting texture, with a little details but abstract for most of the irrelevant. After a little research on Google here is the image that inspires me most. It is in pretty low resolution (I have tried the image search function already but still in vain) but I like its abstraction which gives me freedom to express in my own form. The "right" feeling it gives me is its cleanliness, simplicity, and that monotonic color range that can well captivate that raw light and dark shadowing effect in a fine and delicate way. I always believe "right "shadowing makes the whole artwork blossom. Last but not least, edelweiss, the white and clean little flowers, reminds me my first choir song when I was primary one, makes me so pleasant. :)



The first attempt


Here is my first acrylic attempt after the brief sketching. I used mao bi to paint it in a very watery way, because it is still in experimental process. Thick paint can make the latter process more difficult because the painting marks underneath hinders the variations of the top construction. But later I believe I used the wrong painting brushes - the Chinese Mao Bi - which is absolutely not for acrylic / oily texture. Originally I thought the painting brush should not matter a lot if I could master the painting skills well. But I was wrong. Correct tools catalyze the whole process muccccccch, this was my lesson learnt. Anyway, regardless of the unfinished brushstrokes, I quite like its abstraction it gives in this stage, yet the color seems a bit reddish now I would rather turn it into the warm yellowish tone.


The second attempt


I painted it in a really really happy way, but it ends out become a disaster, hoho. Finally I realized the importance of using correct brushes for oil painting, to express that sort of thick and strong, energetic texture that Mao Bi cannot provide. Honestly I like the vase, I like the flowers (I appreciate the right hand side, except the leftmost part, seems not feathery enough). Firstly I used dark green with that lovely blue, and ground yellow to paint the underneath leaves part. Then after it was dried I added the highlighting white with warm yellow on top for the floral details. I used the remaining color to construct the vase highlighting and shadowing, and also the background. (Originally I thought a darker background can prominent the main character, but it ended out looking like a disaster Haha, too much prominent colors popping out together, loosing the harmony of the whole color tone. ) Yet I know the brushstrokes I want are almost there, I just need to fine tune on the color tone of the whole picture in my next step.


My third attempt, oh I missed this one

Oh dear I in fact really like this version. I thought it can already be the finished piece. It fulfilled my desires, in harmonic tone, abstract with a little delicate details, calm and peaceful, well presented. Yet I hesitate if it missed the energy that a painting can give to the viewers. A bit dull and sad, that I don't want it to be like this. I want to add a bit purple to highlight the whole piece, making it more energetic, vivid and interesting.


My fourth attempt, a strange starfish

To me, making an artwork about enjoying the process of creating something you feel really happy with. My white acrylic paint is drying, thus I moulded it using fingers like clay, and then stick it on the artwork as the highlight, see what's happening:



Background has been redone, not quite work as what I want. And that funny starfish sticker, so funny. BTW I added this lovely pale violent complement to the green tone to give the contrast on the whole feel, making the whole artwork more "energetic". (Contrast can make the whole presentation more eye-catching.) Also I cut it into square size because it presents it in a more interesting way.


A reference on the background presentation

This is the birthday cake box left after my 19th December, 2015 birthday. Thanks my dear, deep from the bottom of my heart. My love dedicates to her forever, my mother.

I love this image, the color and presentation is great.

I wonder if I can put some inspiring elements from it to my unfinished work.




Second last attempt

Still not finished? Yes... I am the one to strive for perfection though it will never be achievable ... only on my work, not on the personality I dare I have tried my best ...

Almost there, except a bit "dirty" on the background ... starfish removed, flowers more delicately constructed ( rather than dot dot dot) ... Lovely ...





Finishing

Ar ha, signature signed.
Fine-tuned on the background and table shadow. Done! Background is a bit darker on the left than on the right, I used the cut-out piece for comparison.



The final presentation

Here it is :



Hope you enjoy reading it, apologize if this is too long ;P